This. Has nothing, but also probably everything, to do with my career (because Our Mother thinks working is a curse. A personality fault. Proof of failure.) But I am writing it here to have a record and documentation. And because this is my blog and I feel that two blogs would be indulgent and Versailles-like.
So, I called my Mother the other day, by way of check-in.
Our little son has been calling her sometimes daily, sometimes weekly, during Covid. We have been worried Sick. Like, actual Wake-Up-In-The-Middle-Of-The-Night, Sick. About my Mother being in an ALF during the pandemic. (She has had BOTH shots as of this writing!!!). Did I mention she has unapologetically smoked for 65 years?
But sometimes, I check-in. To be clear - she is not interested in moi whatsoever. But I feel like I should. So I do. I am the fourth sibling. And typically the first that can handle dealing with her. Our Mother. And also, she did a great job with the guilt.
So, I called Our Mother.
"Hi, Mom. How are you?"
"Oh, Ren! Just thinking about you!," she effusively states.
I think, immediately, "This is odd. This is a trap. Oh, maybe she's being kind. How nice!"
"I got my check today. I need it cashed. Also, I'm out of cat food. And. Paper towels."
Why on earth would I be surprised? Why on earth would I expect anything other than? Why on earth would I think this time she was actually, really, humanly - thinking about me?
But she was. Really. In the only way she can. And that has got to be okay .... Because if it's not? What am I supposed to do with that?